Friday, February 27, 2015
Let us pretend you are an archer. Your aim is true. But there are days that you are out of balance! No wonder then, that sometimes, the arrows that you fire end up in some unexpected places. However, don't feel defeated by recent frustrating experiences. You must allow yourself to be inspired by a new, potentially magical possibility that seems to be arising. You must have faith in yourself and in your instinct. If you are to draw back your bow in precisely the right way at the right moment...you will hit the target dead centre!
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Sitting silently I realised that in life, we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unkept promise, an unheard request, an irreplaceable loss, an unreachable dream, an unforgettable person we love. Yet life is still about being happy anyhow, because, everything in life can be summed up in just three words...Life Goes On!
Saturday, February 21, 2015
I read all three the books of 50 Shades of Grey a long time ago. Now when you read you obviously create images in your mind of the characters as well as the scenes of the pages. The joys of having a wild imagination...teeheehee. So naturally when the movie came out my friends and I were quite eager to go see the movie. But, before I had the chance to go see it some other friends and acquaintances had gone to see the movie. From the comments these people made about the movie I thought that it must really be quite hardcore!! Their comments were so that I was in two minds whether I should even bother to go see the movie. I thought I would be scarred for the rest of my life! Lol!! Well, tonight was the big night. We toddled off to go see the movie. Sat down in the movie and waited in anticipation for this "horrific" movie to start. I have no idea what the big hype was about! Some people were saying it was a sick movie. We laughed at certain things that were said and quite honestly enjoyed the movie. From the comments that were made I was expecting full graphic nudity and the scenes from the red room I was expecting to be quite violent. I have to wonder now about those other people who said the movie was terrible. I guess there are some people in this world that are still quite narrow minded or perhaps I was primed for the movie as I had read the books. In this day and age it is just a reality that there are certain people who get pleasure from inflicting pain and then there are others who get pleasure from seeing someone in handcuffs or whatever. I however would have to agree with Anastasia Steele. Why would you want to see your partner in pain? I also cannot understand how any of that kind of "stuff" can give you pleasure. Quite frankly, like Anastasia Steele, I would also not want to be in that kind of a relationship. How can you be in a loving relationship with someone where you cannot touch each other or sleep in the same bed? I am however not a complete prude. There are certain things that are allowable. There has to be some form of fun in the bedroom otherwise it would be quite monotonous ;).......That is the difference though. There is a huge difference between pleasure and pain!! Maybe something like the pic below...How about some breakfast in bed? I leave you with your imagination...teeheeheeee.
Tuesday, February 17, 2015
Valentines day came and it went. It is not my favourite day at this point in time. Inevitably around the time of Valentines day my mind wanders to a certain person that was a part of my life. I get angry that I allow this time to affect me the way that it does. Not only this particular day, there are days throughout the year that I also think of this person but Valentines day it seems to hit me hardest. Fortunately this year I was out and about all day with my sisters and my cousin Alina, so being distracted from thoughts was a blessing in disguise. Sunday was also a blessing as we spent the day at my sister Angie. It was Alina's last day with us before flying down to spend time with my sister, Karin, in Cape Town. All was good and well until this morning. I got up and with coffee in hand I stood looking out the window at the new dawn, taking in the freshness of the morning and enjoying the birds song. Watching as the sun plays with the shadows and the curtain gently blows in the breeze. My heart beating ever so quietly to the pulse of the new day. Lost in the moment my thoughts wander to this person. I wonder what their Valentines day was like. Did they spend it with someone special? In the past I would change my FB cover with a Valentines Message. Just something subtle that in the event that they should view my profile that they can see I thought of them. This year however I did not do that. I just thought why should I? This person has clearly iced me out of their lives firstly by deleting me from FB and recently by blocking me from sending any e-mails. I just wanted to be the better person because that is who I am. I tend to forgive others that have hurt me. I may not forget right away but I do forgive them. It is just so hard just to forget and let go. How I wish I had a memory loss of that particular episode. A day that will stay with me forever. Letting go of the hurt that someone who says they love you and could never hurt you is so hard to understand and comprehend. How can you hurt the people you love? I just can't understand that. I don't think I will ever understand. The words they wrote on their profile "I still haven't found what I am looking for" reverberates through my mind constantly. That was a blow below the belt. I wear my heart on my sleeve and when I love - I love. Sad that people you let into your life can still hurt you knowing the heart and soul you have. I think it's hard to let go of things that have happened to you because most of the time you never get an answer as to why it happened and that's what you struggle with - thinking, wondering and surmising the why's of it all. It takes time to let go of the struggle you have with things. I have finally come to the understanding that even though I still don't understand why this person did what they did. It's not a problem that I need to deal with, it's a problem that they need to deal with. I try and reassure myself that it's not about me at all, the hurt and the disappointment. At some stage you have to walk away and not look back, knowing that in time none of it really mattered and you can then be free of the struggle you had with it. Stay Positive, Think Positive, Be Positive. What else can you do when you have done your best to make amends and it goes on deaf ears. But letting go hurts when you love someone. This sounds good in print but it's so very, very difficult to do with someone you deeply love. You may 'think' you've let it go but it always haunts you and that is what I am dealing with. The haunting!! Perhaps I cannot let go as I never had the time for closure. They had closure. They made the decision for themselves to cut me out of their lives. I never had that. It takes time. I have forgiven them for hurting me the way they did but perhaps it is time to now forgive myself. I have to forgive myself for allowing this person to hurt me. Time to heal my heart from the pain. Then, maybe I can find peace again, maybe it will be time to forget as well. Perhaps then the haunting will end. Perhaps I will then open myself up to the love that I truly deserve. Ha, great advice. I just wish I could follow it! I guess the big question here is...am I able to let it go??? I guess the answer is gonna be NO!! The song right at the end of this post is so perfect and oh so beautiful and just so relative to this post. Love it!
I see more than you know,
about all that you are,
about all that you are,
and through my observations,
and from my analysis,
I've concluded that
I love you.
Not a theory,
quite simply a fact -
I love you,
and that's that.
On Valentines day my sisters and I took my cousin Alina to the Lion Park which is very close to my home. As we did not manage to see any Lions or Cheetah in the Pilanesberg National Park we thought it would be great if Alina at least still got to see them at the Lion Park. We were also very lucky in that each of us could actually touch a Lion Cub. I am glad that we went out on Valentines day as that day is not particularly my favourite day at the moment. Even the week before or just after is also not the best as inevitably my mind wanders to a certain person that was a part of my life. So being focused on other things is certainly a blessing in disguise.
|Me with a White Lion Cub.|
|My cousin Alina with another Lion Cub.|
Monday, February 16, 2015
On Thursday, 12 February 2015, we got up at the crack of dawn so that we could get to the Pilanesberg National Park before the heat of the day set in so that we could hopefully see the Big 5! We got to see only 2 of the Big 5 and that was Rhino and Elephant. Sadly we never got to see any Buffalo, Lion or Cheetah. We saw a lot of the buck though including Giraffe, Hippo, Zebra, a Tortoise and Turtles as well as Warthogs.
|We had a picnic at Fish Eagle Lookout point.|
|Elephant and baby.|
Just about every afternoon around 18:45pm, Angie, Alina and I would go racing up the hill so that we could take foto's of the sunset. Every afternoon we got a few shots and every time the shots were completely different to the day before and they were stunning!! We also had to hurry as we only had 5 minutes to get the best shots in. It is quite amazing how fast the sun sets.
|My cousin - Alina|
|Alina and I.|
My sister, Rita, joined us at the Seasons Sport and Spa Resort the Tuesday evening as she still had to work the Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday morning we set off early to Sun City to spend the day at the Valley of the Waves. Just as well we did that as the temperature reached 43deg C!!! It was a fantastic fun filled day. We spent the day in the "sea" and going down the super tubes. When you enter the huge gates at the Lost Palace it is almost like you are entering another world. It is amazing how the animals are carved out of the rock and the statues of the Elephants, Monkeys and Lions is all so awe inspiring. You just cannot stop looking at it all. The Palace is also just absolutely incredible. It is all just so beautiful!!